Love Letter

I hate it. I hate the fact that I have no self-control when I’m around you. I’ve spent the better part of my adult life learning how to control my emotions.

I revel in the fact that I can suppress my feelings and keep a poker face on at all times. When I’m around you, I lose it. The feelings I have for you since the day you were born have been intense. I see you and my heart jumps out of my chest.

When I leave for work in the morning, I go into the bedroom and give you a kiss goodbye and it feels like I’m not going to see you for weeks. When I come home, the first thing I do after giving your mom a kiss is wash my hands and immediately grab you and hold you closely. The smell of your hair, your milk breath, your baby farts, all of that, it brings a smile to my face.

Harper, I’m really trying, but I can’t. It’s been two months since you’ve been born and you have been on my mind every single second. You’ve managed to infiltrate my heart and make it yours. I have to share this heart with others, but rest assured, you’ve brought about changes in me.  You’ll never have to guess how I feel about you.

As I finish this love letter to you, my daughter, I want to tell you one thing: you will never be without. You’ll never lack the physical necessities like food, shelter, and clothing, but most importantly, you will never lack love. Specifically, my love.

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Happy two months Harper. I love you.

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